Happyness

2012-02-12T20:31:00.002+08:00

FINDING MY HEART BACK

Catch up 9gag> Watch movie "Once"> Sketch > Paint nails> Sleep

2012-02-12T19:57:00.003+08:00

FINDING MY HEART BACK

After all these wavering, I finally made up my mind. No one

knows if my decision is right or wrong. But, I am pretty

sure I won't regret. Sometimes, you need to let go to see

clearer.

2012-01-31T03:39:00.000+08:00

"So, school is like the only escape for you."

Yes, school is the only escape for me. I think I should

just drown myself in school work. I am tired even if I

don't push myself academically, so might as well

push myself, extend the limit again and again. Tired,

but at least I gain. Seems like no matter what I do,

I still feel tired. I think being up at this hour should

be sufficient to prove my sincerity and will to get

drown in school work. Maybe it's time to start building

a wall and keep people out. Hate it how I can be

so easily affected. But know what I hate most?

I hate myself for lacking determination to safeguard my

emotions.

2012-01-30T01:35:00.002+08:00

"就算用尽所有真心，却到不了你的心底"

2012-01-27T02:00:00.001+08:00

>;(

To get out of the past, To live with the present, To await the future.

Life's short, nobody knows what awaits, no one can predict what the

future might bring or maybe we might not have a future. Live with the

present, love what you have at present, treasure people around you

at this moment. People come and people leave but perhaps if we were

to cherish times when they're still there, maybe it'll hurt a lil

lesser when they leave. Open up your heart, open up to people who

truly cares, why hurt people who are sincere and genuine to you.

Sometimes, people you should abandon are those who hurt you, not

those who are true. But how can you see if someone's true? A man,

with an intention to lie, will never let you catch them red-handed.

How can we trust that they are honest? How can we entrust our faith in

them? How do we know if it was all worth it in the end? And then again,

there is no worth it or not in life but when you put in your best,

when you put your faith in someone's heart for safe keeping, when you

decide to open up to someone, isn't a "reward" all you wanted?

A reward to show you that someone is worth it. Ultimately, when it all

comes to an end, we'll realise wanting to measure the worthiness is like

waiting for earth to stop rotating because love is unmeasurable, trust

is never enough and sincerity are never totally felt.

2012-01-20T22:26:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when I am alone and I pass by those places,

that feeling kicks in and sunny day becomes rainy day.

This happens almost everyday, I can't remember when

was the last time I was truly happy.

2012-01-09T02:15:00.000+08:00

"Happiness is not a destination, it is a mood. It is not permanent,

it comes and goes and if people thought that way then people

would find happiness more often."

One Tree Hill

2012-01-06T00:33:00.001+08:00

New project brief, An entirely new project.

I promised myself not to disappoint anybody this time round.

Especially myself.

If I work hard and I get disappointed, it's okay at least I've learnt.

If I didn't work hard and I get disappointed,It's not okay because I've let myself down.

2012-01-02T18:38:00.003+08:00

"The hardest blows in life are not the ones that you expected
but the ones you least expected."
Muhammad Ali

2011-12-31T02:30:00.000+08:00

No resolution for 2012, my resolutions always doesn't work.

No idea how to summarise 2011 either, it has been just so

hectic, bumpy yet at the same time, the year where my happiest

moment occurred but also the year where my saddest moment

happened. It is the year I felt blessed for and the year where I

thank god for everything and I really meant everything. It is also

the year where I matured soooooo much, and changed sooooo

much. I can proudly say I love how I think now, that sensitivity,

that maturity, that deep thinking. Just 1 year and I grew so much.

1 year ago, I make senseless comments, give useless opinions,

talk thoughtlessly. But now, it's different, I look broader, wider

and further. And I like it. It's contradicting when I say I love

growing up but I don't wanna get older. I like how my brain

matures and how my thinking process changes and how that

affects my daily life. But the thought of getting older just freaks me.

Time passes so fast. Soon, I'll be stepping into adulthood. It's

scary. I love to be more matured and responsible but I am just

not ready to be an adult. There are many things I can't handle,

many stress I think I can't cope, many problems I don't wanna

face. But oh well, what will come will come. No point fussing over

it isn't it? In anyway, I want 2012 to be better because life can only

get better.

2011 or 2012 doesn't make any difference to me.

I just hope things can stay as they are now.

I want to stay happy with friends around me.

I want to stay happy with family around me.

I want to stay happy with loonies around me.

I want to stay happy for whoever that step into my life and

never left.

Trolololololololo. So addicted to it I misuse it. but who cares! (:

2011-12-28T12:58:00.001+08:00

Pretty darn sad and touching movie but it teaches us morals.

"Don't ever let somebody tell you, you can't do something.

You've got a dream, you've got to protect it. People can't

do something themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it.

You want something, Go get it. "

2011-12-27T12:31:00.000+08:00

Simplest word But hardest to understand.

I need to set my priorities right, so I can be happy.

But I am really sick of putting others as my priority,

Not even a single soul am I convinced who will place

me as their priority if I place them as mine.

I'm doing my best to please everybody, to set everything right.

But you see, sometimes, doing my best isn't enough.

It's never enough.

2011-12-23T23:33:00.005+08:00

18th Birthday, they say its suppose to be the best birthday

of one's teens life. Indeed, I had a blast. Gonna be a super

longgggg post~ Let's go.

16th: Meet up with ong siangyee that boy. hehehe. Although

it's just a simple dinner but we had the best talk ever. Really

love how we can talk nonstop all night. Saw gerald too and

boy, I miss him. Definitely have to meet up(:

damn, forget take pictures): hur hur.

19th: Celebration with ma girls @ Timbre.

My lovely ladies. ♥ More photos to come!

20th: Christmas exchange "party" at chenhan's house.

hahahahah Such a big group oh my god, but another

great night to remember.

The Girls that night *Woots

and my melon! "Best" Exchange gift ever. LOLOL.

21st: Celebration with the loonies! Yoohoo. Dinner @

NYDC @ Holland V. and to PFY's pig den. hahaha.

Daisyyyyy~ So pretttty. \m/

LOLOL. (Y)

hahahahahahahaahahahahhaha best.

hhahahahahahahahh "xiao boy boy" haha

Liquor \m/

♥ Fav Girl. heheheheheheheh and boys below.

More on facebook to be uploaded by Ng. hehe~

Went home on 22nd morning. Impromptu overnight,

got nothing with us but it's cool like that. Right, Ng?

22nd: Celebration with family. ♥ heheheheh

Had a blast for my 18th. Not perfect but I am willing

to overlook the imperfections. I now know who

really cares and am really there and who's not.

Not blaming or directing at anybody. It's just a feeling

I have. (:

Shoooo much presents this year, I feel so loved and

blessed seriously. Thank you, god for sending people

who love me to be with me.

By ma ladies. Bella and sabnomnom ♥ Will fill it

up with photos and hang up!

Thank you sisssy. I know it's not complete right.

hiak hiak hiak hahahaahahahahahahah ♥

Emo and L-bin. ♥

Huanggggggg ♥

ZINC ♥

Nay~~ *Touched*

Yusman.

Pfy, CCL and huang ♥

Simplest, Chill-est but best 18th (:

Confession Time:

Huang ♥,

No need picture laa hor on top so many your face

already. hahahah Thank you for everything laaaaa.

I know it's not easy planning cause I've been through

it. and I can seriously see how hard you guys tried

to make my 18th a good one. I am sho touched really.

I might not show it but deep down I am. You guys

are the best clique ever man. and you are my best

friend forever * Cliché but true okay. I know you

have other best friend laaa ): I one sided affair okay.

hahahahaha kiddin'. heheh Can't love you and you

guys more man \m/ ♥ Okay, it's getting cheeesy,

my hair standing. Grrrr you get it jiu hao okay! (:

Zelene (I know you're smiling cause y'know, I'know),

hahahaha.Hi babe! Thank you for whatever you've

done too. I know you must be thinking. It's nothing

much but you know I love hand made stuffs!! So

it's a lot okay. Don't be inferior(: Thank you for

trusting me and telling me everything. I won't

break your trust. *Sis Fist* Don't always think you

no life okay. Like I said, you have life what. and

No worries, I'll bring you go "See" the world.

ahahahahhha~~ ♥♥

"Don't be blind to people who love you cause

he doesn't love you. But, be blind to him and

love the rest"

I thank god for everything and everybody he lets into my life.

2011-12-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

MY bucket list.

http://perfectbucketlist.tumblr.com/

So much on my list. Target: Before I die.

2011-12-13T17:34:00.000+08:00

Life fuck us all. Fucking true.

Never gonna put anybody as my fucking priority
anymore. Nobody's gonna be at the top of the list.
I've had enough. Never am I gonna make myself
transparent to anybody anymore. cause nobody
truly cares and understands. Humans are all selfish.
Fuck myself for being a human.
Life is unfair, live with it. Easier said than done.
To live with unfairness, to live with being an option,
to live with doubting yourself every single fucking day.
You come and try. Tell me if you can live with it.

FUCK.

2011-12-11T23:42:00.003+08:00

Dear bestfriend.

Please read this cause this post's for you.
I am sorry I kept things from you. I really didn't mean to.
I've changed so much you know. I am no longer expressive,
I can't express myself anymore, I would rather pen down my
thoughts or illustrate my thoughts than to say it face to face.
which is why I've never told you about everything. It's so hard
for me to have to say everything out face to face now. You
may not notice cause we're all so busy. But I am so straight
forward and blunt now. and I am becoming lika boy. srsly.
I don't express myself much now, and I can't say mushy stuffs
for nuts. and you will never know how long has it been since
I last said "I love you, love you" to my mommy and sis.
Sometimes, even boys are more expressive than me..
Which is why I can't bring myself to tell you everything face to
face. I am really sorry. but you know what, not saying everything
doesn't prove anything. I mean we still keep our sister
relationship right.. but I know how you feel la. really. Now that
I have told you everything, Please don't be mad at me anymore...
I am so sorry): I know this sounds insincere but I hope you get
what I am trying to get across here? Don't be mad at me anymore
sorrry ): oh and one thing, I never lie okay. I can't lie and
I don't lie. oh my god this whole paragraph sounds super
insincere. okay, sucks to be me.
I'm sorry and please, don't be mad at me anymore okay? <3

2011-12-04T22:47:00.001+08:00

4th day of Dec. I don't know how long am I gonna wait and I
don't wanna continue waiting.. but I really can't help it.
I don't understand myself. Why do I keep waiting and
having expectations when I know you won't do it and you
won't mean what you say? I really don't understand myself,
so fucked up with myself. What the hell am I thinking? Why
must I put myself in so much agony? Why must I let you
hurt me? Everything could have been perfect now, COULD
have been. if you were STILL here.

When I think about all the memories, I feel so miserable.
We started out so well, it all went well until you stop trying.
Are you that bored of me? seriously? If you are, then tell me
so I can stop waiting and stop trying. It will hurt but at
least it won't prolong the pain. I really don't know what
else to do with us. Or rather I know what to do but I don't
wanna do it cause I can't let go. I know good things don't
last, but isn't ours too short? Not telling anybody about it
until quite some time cause I am afraid that it will be gone
if I say it out. I don't feel secured at all, Not even a tiny bit.

Knowing you was a mistake. You made me feel nobody's gonna
be good enough. Knowing you was god's punishment to me.
I must have done wrong. That's why you came and you left.
"People can't hurt you. It the memories and feelings that does."
Somebody, get me out of this agony please. I don't know how long
more I can go through.

2011-11-30T18:07:00.001+08:00

I feel so fucked up these few days. I disappoint my lecturers,
I disappoint myself terribly. I feel so lousy, I suck. I finally
fully understand what it meanas by" Doing your best is never
enough". Or perhaps it's not my best. I hate having
expectations and hate it when I failed to meet up to the
expectation. I don't like disappointments. I hate the look on
my lecturer's face, I hate looking at my work thinking it's
fucking ugly. I want and need to work harder. I want to be
proud of my work, I want to look at it and say I love it.
I want my lecturers to feel proud of me.
I need to work alot harder.

Most importantly the reason why I feel so fucked up.
I need to withdraw, seriously. This can't go on.
I don't wanna do things I will regret 10 years down
the road. Or maybe I dont even have the ability to do
so but I thought I had. To you, I'm just a toy, someone
you'll think of when there's nobody to go to. But when
I thought about everything, even to the tiniest details,
I can't do it, I can't give up. It sucks. I hate god for putting
you in my life. If what I am going through now is what I
have to pay for whatever happiness I have with you, I rather
you dont exist. Because it's really hard having to withdraw
now. I am not even confident that I can do it. I think I
fucking can't get over you and can't withdraw from you.
Fuck, I hate this.

2011-11-25T05:26:00.000+08:00

It's almost dawn, I.AM.SO.TIRED. school in 2 hours time. Hai~
Losing patience and motivation to continue with my submission):
I can't give up I know. But in my head I kept hearing this voice
that asks me to give up. )': Am feeling so moody nowwwwww
cause.. I am tired, hungry, and am feeling down. I want to sleep.

Was originally looking forward to holidays. but now... Hmmm
I don't think so. Once I feel free, disappointment sits in.
I don't like it. I don't wanna feel disappointed all the time.
But I can't help it cause I always hold my hopes too high and
have expectations. ); This sucks.
liar liar pants on fire, I think your pants is on fire right?
I think being lied to is something that impacts me alot.

2011-11-18T12:07:00.000+08:00

Should have gotten used to it but I am not. Still having
hopes and expectations from you knowing it will never come.
I think I never will get over you, and never will get used to the
fact that I am just insignificant to you, and I am just a toy to you.
Its beyond disappointment. I thought you were different,
I thought I could trust you. But you're just like the rest.
it's really beyond disappointment. There's no more faith left in me.

2011-11-14T09:34:00.000+08:00

Only anybody's priority when they have nobody else to turn to.

Tired of being an option. I shall not make anybody my priority

anymore. People only remembers me when they need me.

Just so insignificant, okay can.

2011-11-08T16:07:00.003+08:00

Warning: The following paragraph's not making any sense. &
Please do not read if you're alr feeling down.

I can't help it, I really can't. As much as I kept telling myself
at the back of my head to let it go, to move on, stop
having expectations, I can't do it. Fuck, I really can't.
When I experience happy moments, I want you to be here.
When I experience unhappy moments, I want you to be here.
I kept telling myself life is perfect already, but my mind tells
kept saying to me you're not here, life isn't perfect.
No matter where I go, What I do, every single fucking
thing reminds me of you. Everything I swear. It's killing me,
over and over again. Whenever I tell myself to let go, and
fucking move on, I get reminded of what you said, what
we said we're supposed to do, what we want to do, what
we're gonna do, what we will do. I never forget any single thing,
Every word, every moment, everything's still in my mind.
Even every expectations I have that turns into disappointments.
I can't forget. I can't. I fucking can't. It makes me sad
to think that we're not gonna do whatever that we said.
But y'know what's the saddest thing, you forgot everything.
I never, not even once. but you forgot. I think one day, which
is soon or it might even be here who knows, You will forget me
too. we're already drifting apart, so fast. I am not even
prepared to keep you out of my life but you're already gone.
I want you back, but "I want you back", "I miss you",
"Talk to me", "Don't forget me." seems to be the hardest words
to say. I fucking can't forget you. I fucking want you back but
I know I fucking can't.

whole chunk of words, but one sentence can
summarise everything.
"I got way too attached to you." PERIOD.

2011-11-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

"Don't make someone your priority when you're just their option."

so so so true. I think I have been making others my priority

too much and being others option too much. I was never

anyone's priority, never, I was always their options. Someone

they go to only when they need, someone they think of only

when they're lonely, someone they know that will back them up.

As much as I put them as my priority, at the top of the list, and

hoping they will do the same, it never happen. Nobody really

stays and never leave.

I'm tired, very.

2011-10-31T03:31:00.001+08:00

Assignments piling up, so worried I can't complete my submission.

Sigh. I need to work faster and still work faster.
If not at this rate, wednesday will be my doomsday.

No matter how busy I am, whenever I stop, even for 1 second,

you appear. wtf.

2011-10-26T14:51:00.002+08:00

Today ,
I miss seeing your name on the screen when there's a vibration.
I want to be best friends with you.
I want to talk to you.
I hope you talks to me.

2011-10-25T13:51:00.002+08:00

I miss seeing your name on the screen when there's a vibration.

2011-10-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

I want YOU in my life.

2011-10-23T10:26:00.006+08:00

It's never enough. Humans are greedy.
When you don't have it, you yearn for it.
When you finally have it, you ask for more and even more.
There needs to have a stop, I need to stop. I need to stop
being so greedy. Be thankful, grateful and stop wanting more.
Expectations needs to get down and stop.

My mind's in a mess, terrible mess.

2011-10-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

28 more mins to end of today. 28 mins more of expectation to

what I want before disappointment sinks in. 28 mins more of

waiting. I know disappointment will sink in, fast. It's already

sinking in slowly now but why am I still holding on to any

expectation... I don't know.

Note to self: Don't expect, Never let disappointment take

control over me. Don't get drowned in disappointment.

They ain't meant to exist.

2011-10-18T19:04:00.000+08:00

Haven't felt so blessed in a long time.
It feels good, very good, so good I hope today
doesn't end at all. But I can't be greedy.
I am thankful for today, really(:

2011-10-15T03:13:00.000+08:00

No expectations means no disappointment. No expectation... How can you have no expectation on something so dear to you? Easier said than done. "Expectations" a word so simple yet hurtful. Time to let go and hold no more hopes.
If anybody wants to be part of your life, they will make an effort. If they don't make an effort, then tell yourself they're not worth to be part of you.
Sometimes, we just have to be numb about it and get used to it..

2011-10-13T01:06:00.001+08:00

They always say after a day of happiness comes a day of sadness. Is that day gonna come
Soon? Cause I had an awesome night the night before ytd.
As much as I hate this, it's beyond my control. And sometimes happiness is just so distant and unachievable.
I would rather not have a day of true happiness just so to avoid that one single day of unhappiness. Instead of being on a roller coaster with ups and downs, I rather stay on ground forever.

"Hugs, a way of telling people you're there without using words. It bring warmth to others. I want a hug )': "

2011-10-11T18:22:00.002+08:00

What more to say? Exactly.

2011-10-10T19:39:00.001+08:00

Something's wrong with me.

When I eat, I wanna throw up. But when I don't,
my gastric/stomach/ whatever organ it is churns like mad.
2 accomplishment today: Surfing th net aimlessly and
sleeping as and when I like. Am gonna watch a comedy
movie later, I need that. And sleep early tonight, hate to
sleep early but I guess I need it. My brain's tired from all
the thinking today. Man I don't feel good.
Physically, Emotionally & Mentally.

2011-10-10T11:14:00.000+08:00

I.AM.VERY.VEXED. & TROUBLED. >:
LIFE SUCKS.

Going to sleep everynight just to realise there's nothing and
waking up in the morning just to realise there's STILL nothing
just sucks so muchhhhhh. )':
But the worst thing of all... is to be waiting and waiting and waiting
every single night and every single morning. )':

It just gets lesser and lesser each day, soon, there will be no more.

2011-10-08T20:31:00.000+08:00

I wished I could do better, I could do more. But I am in no position to):

Hai, life sucks. LOL.

I seriously want to know what am I in your life, who am I to you.

This answer is important so that I could do more, do better than this

and keeps us going.

Don't leave me hanging on a string, I get attached to people

easily, Don't come into my life and leave as and when you like,

don't be like the others, cause I feel you're different.

2011-10-07T14:15:00.001+08:00

Everything said makes perfect sense.

2011-10-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

Unappreciated, Disappointed, insecured.

Yes, that's how I felt today. Its like I am always others

second option, never their priority, not even their first option,

but second.

"No expectation, No disappointment." Easier said than done.

Guess I've tried enough, I am done trying.

2011-09-16T00:34:00.001+08:00

Sooo busy recently, almost everyday I am going out, tired):
But life's good this way, almost everyday I am meeting ahfat,
both ahfat :D we always have so much fun tgt. hahahaha.
Next week's gonna be busy too, and the same goes for the
week after next. and before I realise, my holiday will be gone.
its already half gone. oh myyyyy. I haven had enough fun and
rest! Got to fix my laptop sooon and do my portfolio. Time to
stop procrastinating. Busy is good, busy keeps you going,
keeps your mind fresh! <:

Just read up alot on animals, I wanna be a honey badger.
Not because it looks cute, but because they have spirit I do
not have(:

Random; I wanna do this one day. crazy but Yes, I wanna do it.

" You know I'm hoping you'll sing along, though it's not

your favourite song."

2011-09-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

"Don't waste your time looking back at what you lost, Move on.

Life is not meant to be travelled backwards."

-MyqoutesBooks; RT@NGJY93-

Yeah This is so true. and people in the photos below are those

who helped me move on these few days, they make me happy

and I love them very much.

Overheard and Kim gary at Vivo with loonies(:

Gay PFY hahahahahahahahahah hehehee(:

Loonies are the friends I know, I can totally trust them.

Decoder's Cafe with GFs. ♥♥♥ Favourite girls.

Love my girls so muchhhh I miss them alr. Serious)):

Longgg overdue photo. Swensens with GFs.

Running, swimming with Huang.

The only one I will show my weak side to, ahfat(:

ahfat ah, we must stay this way for very very longgg okay..

♥ (L) Ps; You're in all the photos!! hahahahaha. We like

superglued tgt hor. (:

Family and these few people are whom kept me going through

hardtimes. Of course not leaving out BFF I haven met in a

longg time, BTE, Adilah, CCL, and Nun)):

Secondary friends are friends I'll keep for life.

Nun, the only special one in poly(: The only friend in poly

whom I think will stay with me for life.

Stayhome day tmr, shall do house chores and keep the house

clean. (:

2011-09-08T03:04:00.000+08:00

Can't sleep can't sleep I can't fall asleep:(
Sooo tired my hands are aching for IDK what reasons
But I can't sleep. Deleted so many messages in my
Phone. What needs to go havev to go, no point keeping
Them. Whatever that needs to be remembered are alr
Inside, inside that pinkish intestine looking almost
Rounded thingy inside the skull. If one day it's no
Longer inside, it means it's permanently gone because
It's not important. Whatever it is deleted means deleted
Period (: Okay imma go count dinosaurs and try to sleep.

2011-09-02T13:18:00.001+08:00

Overheard2 & HK Kim gary for dinner with the looniessssss.
No photos yet hahahaa. Nearly fell asleep halfway through the movie,
all the stocks kind of thing ain't my thing. hahahaha But ending and
starting was pretty good, exciting uh. (: Sigh now I am soooooo bored.
omgggg real bored.

abrupt ending cause I got nothing to say anymore. lol.

TOODLES!<:

I love loonies. hiakhiakhiak.

2011-08-30T14:08:00.000+08:00

Depression mood. I really really wanna be slim and
skinny. Holidays always makes me feel damn fat cause
with nothing to do, I eat and eat. ))): Sigh.
I need determination! I must must die die must
Slim down. Been ages since I last weigh myself. LOL
NO COURAGE.

I am such a fat and lazy woman. omggggg sadlife.

2011-08-25T20:03:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: Nervous, mixed emotions laaaaa.

Critique tmr, Keep telling myself not to be scared. If I starts to
freak out, I'll do a terrible job I know it. I must calm down. Just
finished planning what to say. Got to memorise it later, die die
must get main points inside my head. A panel of lecturers, omggg.
freak. breathe in breathe out. I can do this. I want it to be good
like the other time, I can do it(: Last person to present tmr. They
must all be sian alr. Lights event after that , 8 at city hall. critique
ends around 5plus. Should I go home? Or just go to the library?
loner (Y) Getting used to being a loner, that's gooood at least
I won't be dependant on anybody(:

Going crazy over city hunter. OMG lee minho ah wae you so hot!
LOL. After watching CH, I find singapore drama so lameeee.
So many people but can't even handle one gang -.-
In city hunter, we just need one guy to mess up the whole country!
AH HAH.

Okay. Imma go memorise my script now. <:
I-CAN-DO-THIS. JY.

2011-08-24T19:00:00.000+08:00

Need to get a good book soooon(:

No more moley roley nemo emo days~

2011-08-24T16:50:00.000+08:00

Tooo much free time alr, so much time for me to think think and think.

Thinking about stuffs I don't wanna think about. Maybe if the world

really ends in 2012, It's a good thing. At least it puts an end to

everything. Oh well, I don't know just saying.

I think I should get a job, make my portfolio nicer, spend my holiday

wisely, instead of wasting time at home, I should go out, earn bucks,

gain experience, know more ppl and have fun.. Hmmm but the

first step is always hard y'know. So hard to get started. hmmm .

abrupt ending cause I don't know what to say anymore ._.

I.AM.SO.BORED.

2011-08-21T13:03:00.000+08:00

Maldives((:
I wanna go there so badly omggggg.
Someone please bring me there! Go there clear rubbish
also shuang please.

2011-08-20T19:14:00.002+08:00

Holland V ytd after submission for Daily Scoop and Nasi lemak
with the loonies. (: (L)

Submission's over hell yeah. fucking happy been telling peneh
how happy I was ytd LOL. yes I was that happy. I got my life
back! Holidays are here, time for some alcohol and some fun!(:

headache attack!! Shall go bath! but before that, gonna write
something for somebody. hiak hiak hiak.

To: Dearest xoxo.
THANK YOU for being there always!! you know who you are!!
You're the only one that truly understands and knows how difficult
things are for me, how difficult this sem has been for me, how difficult
it is for me to make it through and be strong. You know how hard
I've tried to be this strong cause you know how much I couldn't stand
being alone and all. I really really thank god for you. cause, if not for
you encouraging me, listening to me, accompanying me, I don't know
what would have become of me. I guess i'll be screwed and my grades
would be screwed too. Suay things happen to me all the time, I think god
hates me by giving me all this shit and putting me on a roller
coaster that never goes up. But you're someone, other than my family
who makes me think maybe god doesn't hates me so much! Although at
times we quarrel, we fight, we become unreasonable (ahem esp you ah!!!)
we made up again and again.(: okay, better stop now don't wanna get all
emotional and then sian again-.- You're having exams now, jiayou jiayou.
Goodluck to you huh darling! you can make it cause you'll never fail!! (:
hehehhe thank you for everything hiak hiak. ♥ Don't forget 31st august
and 5,6,7,8!! hahahaha. Not much people truly understands me cause
I hide what I am feeling but I think you're one who truly does.

2011-08-20T17:35:00.001+08:00

its the holidays, I am bored. I shall blog. back later!

2011-08-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

CAI XIUZHEN!!!! PLEASE STOP PROCRASTINATING LIAO.
WTF. BY HOOK OR BY CROOK COMPLETE 3DMAX
MAPPING, LIGHTS BY TMR MORNING 430AM!! THEN DO
TOD JOURNAL ENTRIES. IF I CAN'T FINISH, I 不姓 CAI.

I HATE MYSELF. WHY I KEEP PROCRASTINATING!!!!!
NABEI.

2011-08-15T03:32:00.000+08:00

I am so dead. Slacked my weekends away~ All plans failed):
only got GEMS& autocad done and ready, shall test print tmr. '
3dmax andTOD untouch at all. Fuck, I am screwed. )): SIGH.
last week is always the hardest!! Can't focus at all. keep thinking
about holidays. BOO>: kay, nvm. Self-motivation!! Complete
3dmax tmr, mapping, lights, furnitures etc etc. and complete at
least 6 TOD entries!! and also!!Start on walkthrough.

Sigh, walkthrough. Wtf, I srsly don't know how to do it. what
frames thingy. and what rendering thingy. I know nuts. ): How
am I gonna produce a at least 1min long walkthrough by friday?!
oh well, I am screwed):

Feeling so fucked up and screwed now. damn, not in the mood to
do any work cause I feel so hopeless abt it. like totally. so feel like
giving up doing walkthrough I am serious. ):

ahhhh, sleep la sleep la. wake up tmr hopefully i feel a lil bit hopeful
about everything. FML.

2011-08-12T18:44:00.002+08:00

So near yet so FAR.

Gonna do this in future or get started in the holidays, SO COOL.
I like (Y)

Presentation panels submitted ytd, Phew, 4 boards! Sounds so
easy but its so hard. SO damn hard. Because of it, I went without
sleep for a total of 65 hours (including submission time etc). I thought
I was gonna die, srsly. My back hurts like fuck and my shoulders,
my neck. Oh and my eyes. and my head. Practically, I was hurting
everywhere! _|_! I must be superwoman!~ (: anyway I made it.
so glad. so so so glad.

Next friday, submission of walk-through, construction drawings,
TOD journal, IDS process journal. omgggg so much. Haven even
finish mapping my 3d max. )): Have to finish up walk-through by wed.
cause rendering itself takes like 1 day or 2 days. >.< Poor lappy. oh my.
then have to get construction drawings printed. kay, shall do it on tue.
then have to print TOD journal as well. damn. >: aiya gotta plan my
time. yes planning. ):

Not much time yet I spent my whole afternoon catching up "on the fringe".
yes, the9pm channel8 show. Noob I know, watch this kind of show right!
But I like. heh. (: Wanted to sleep, cause I haven even replenish my
65hours of not sleeping. but sleeping can be a waste of time sometimes...
Hmmm right! TIRED TIRED STILL TIRED. Oh well, that's.... just....a..
designer's life. More coffee to keep me up at night. Shld add 2 packet in
a cup. The more bitter it is, more caffeine, better it works. LOL.

Alright, gonna do my CAD drawings now. by tonight!! OFF THE LIST
YES YES hopefully):

Holidays seems so near yet so far Y'all understand!! Like same same
but different. ):

2011-08-09T03:06:00.000+08:00

LAST LAP.

Submission today. as usual, not satisfied with my work at all!!
in fact, I kinda hate it cause its not nice, not neat, just terrible.
but oh well, submitted liaoz, forget it manxzx.
Another submission on thursday, & if I wanna get it printed by
wednesday, I only have 1 day, 1 freaking day to complete 3Dmax
with furnitures, mapping, lights and also to render 4 plans, 2 sections
and!! to layout my presentation board. DAMN HOW TO!!! SHITZ
Printing's gonna cost a bomb too, $16 each board. just for that 15
mins of critique, I have to blooody spent at least 50 bucks in total?!?!
and the boards will be left to collect dust?!?!?
DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. >.<

Already sort of plan my holidays liaoz. (: So fast right, I know cause
I CAN'T WAIT. NEED TO GET A LIFE.

Am going to hit the beach.

Am going to take long, slow, chill walks around beautiful places.

Not rich enough to visit all these places, just find them very very pretty
and one day, I will be there(:

In short, coming holiday, I am just going to......
NUAR AND CHILL.

Alright, shall edit my autocad plans a bit and head to bed(:
Goodnight.

2011-08-02T23:11:00.001+08:00

I know this sounds bad, like I am making use of my friends. but its true.
Its when you face setbacks, you're unhappy that you'll start thinking of
your "old buddies". I mean yes, sounds like I am taking them for granted.
But its like when you're down, you miss them especially much. cause
you know they will always be your shelter outside home. They will always
be able to make you smile like before and always give you strength for
anything. Old buddies are family you have outside. We can scream at
each other, fight, but at the end of the day, we can still talk like nothing
ever happened. Even in complete silence, there'll be no awkwardness.
Its like you're so comfortable with them, you don't have to hide anything
from them. Its like when you found your old buddies, you feel like god
has given you more sisters and brothers. People you know you can rely
on outside, people you wouldn't mind if they've become so dependant on
you. People that you keep in your heart, even many many days of silence
and not meeting up won't make you forget them.

School's keeping me away from my buddies, I am sad. I miss them soooo
much and I thank god for giving me an additional 3 sisters and 2 brothers.
"Buddies" isn't just a word, it has depth to it.

Alright, taking a 5 min break from autocad. Gonna get back to work.
I need strength to keep going, it's getting a bit too tough huh.
When the going gets too tough, even the tough can't get going.

11:11 I want my buddies to stay by my side always(:

2011-07-24T21:57:00.001+08:00

))):

2011-07-15T15:39:00.000+08:00

Just thinking,

I really really want to see my own funeral, I want to see the faces
and expression of every single person. Who will shed a tear, who
will be really sad that I'm gone, who will miss me, who will wish
that I am alive again and who will be happy that I am no longer here.
Just wondering, even a dream about my own funeral and the
expression of everybody would be good enough. at least I get to see.
I really want to see, its like ppl normally remember you after you're
dead (like Michael Jackson) and start remembering about your
advantages. I really want to know what others remembers me for
and what they hate me for too. I think you'll feel even more loved
after you die, srsly. Ppl start missing you, start thinking about your
good traits etc etc. Not when you're alive and kicking. When you're
here, all good. nobody actually treasure your presence. Humans are
all like that, I'm one of them too lol. Sometimes I think creator of humans
is such an ass! Why doesn't our brain comes with a function of able
to read other people's life? srsly, If we're all able to do that, number of
HAPPY girls and boys will tripled?! or even more.
Able to read other's mind> never think so much> no depression>
HAPPY PEOPLE!
Able to read other's mind> able to make others happy> HAPPY PEOPLE.
Able to read other's mind> No backstabbing, no cheating, no betrayal>
HAPPY PEOPLE.
See, so many pros!!
So to me, creator of human isn't that smart either. lolol.

Life is a struggle, everyone struggles to make it through.

2011-07-08T05:10:00.000+08:00

Life's short,
Be with whoever that makes you happy,
Do whatever that makes you happy,
Think anything that make you happy,
Life's short and unpredictable, let's make it be a good one.

"Happiness is a state of mind". THINK happy.

2011-06-15T00:43:00.001+08:00

Omgggg so lost for IDS. I don't even know if I am on the right track. >.<
& I've been so unproductive for the past weeks, even today.
I.am.so.slow omggggg Submission in like 2 to 3 weeks time. I haven got
anything done. wtf I am dead. Self-declared dead. Everytime when I do
my work, I kept questioning myself lol, I'm really clueless about what to
do. I know lecturers are helping us to be independent but isn't this too
much of an independence?! LOL. O'well, guess I'll just screw this project.
Shall continue with whatever shit I am doing, at least I got something to
show. ))):

Hate it when schoolwork evade my holidays!! Holidays are called holidays
for a reason>:
" Holiday: A day of festivity or recreation when no work is done. "

2011-06-07T23:44:00.001+08:00

Feeling quite depressed these few days. Can't figure out why until
I realise must be I've changed. I miss th old me. The one who has
such a high tolerance level, so much patience, and will never ever
get angry at all,No matter how others treat her, she will not treat them
the same way. No matter what she hears, what she sees, she can suck
it all in. I really want th old me back. Now, I can like get pissed off
over the slightest thing, have no patience for ppl arnd me, including mom,
and I can't believe my tolerance level is so low. and I am way too
sensitive. Being over-sensitive really sets me crazy. Think tooo much,
way toooooo much.

Admitting to the fact that I've change is really saddening. Cause it
meant I am such a mean person now, and layman terms, I am
a bad person with a poor personality. I don't like it. and As I grew
older, I realise I got lesser friends, and chances of conflict between
me and my friends increased by soooo much. Last time, I don't really
know what does it mean by "quarrel". That's cause I am willing to
tolerate, appreciate others, and have patience. Life's so goood in
the past but I didn't cherish. Until life became so terrible for me,
then I realise how fortunate I was in the past. Sometimes, I really
ponder if I have some mental issues. No matter what I do, I am
never contented, never happy with what I have.

I want to be happy like the past. I need to find the old me back. That's
the only way to get happiness. Everything shall start anew this holiday.
I need to find the old me back, need to cherish ppl around me, need
to treat ppl arnd me the way they deserve and I need to get my friends
back. I realise, you can get as far as want, go as high as you, be as
successful as you can. but with nobody with you, with nobody to share
your joy, you are never happy and you are never successful.
Good things need to be shared, its only when you share what you have,
share what you love, then you will get more, learn more and feel happier.

Everything starts anew. (: I hope you read this. I want to start anew and
salvage the friendship because I still treasure it, and I still treasure you guys(:
You can feel I am "fake" here but its okay. Cause I will keep trying until
I am no longer seen as a "fake person". I can get ignored, get cold reply,
but I will keep trying.

Tmr will be a good day because everything will rewind. (:

2011-05-31T02:26:00.000+08:00

Not suppose to be here I know.
Okay, life sucks recently. Mega suck. Suck ballzxzxx totally.
I don't even know "where" am I now? LOL BEST JOKE EVER.
SO FUNNY I AM DYING. I hate myself, yes very much.
I really really really want to lose my memory. For the 1st time in
my entire life, I want to lose my memory. Even things I don't want
to forget, I want to forget now. I can start all over again, from learning
to tie shoelace. If I can lose my memory, forget every single thing,
I can learn to speak, learn ABC, learn to hold a spoon, learn to
tie shoelace all over again, As long as I can forget every single thing.
Why when I want to forget, I just can't and it just stays in my brain
like forever and ever, never going away.

When you're at pit bottom, you fear nothing cause you know
nothing can bring you down any further.

2011-05-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

Alright, here we go again~ Sleepless nights. Hmmmm, 1 month long
project, come on we can do this!! (: I really want to do my best for this.
Been thinking, ever since start of CF, there hasn't been any project which
I feel like "Its the best, no regrets". Every project have to have regrets.
LOL. so yahhhh I want this project to the one with no regrets, MUST TRY
MUST TRY. (:

Not gonna update this space for quite some time. Dang Dang!!

I can If I believe, we all CAN if we believe(: everybody can do this,
I know cause we've been through Year 1 tgt. (:

2011-05-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

I wonder how what am I in other's eyes. What do they see me as?
Maybe I am just a useless being on earth, so fake, so worthless.
Suddenly feels like everything's so big, and I am one tiny thing there,
keeping my heads down. Tried putting ALL my attention on
homework but it's not helping. Most of the time, I am staring at my
phone, waiting for its vibration that something good's gonna happen.
Wasted ytd night, Think tonight will be wasted too, I just can't
concentrate. Why when I make a mistake or I did something
not called a mistake but I don't know what shld it be called and
I can't be forgiven? Why?

"Sometimes the hardest things to say are the things that really matters."

2011-05-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

I don't know what's on your mind.
Cold wars ain't gonna help, and I really dislike cold wars.
I don't want to be feeling moody all day cause of this.
I am going to talk it out. Waiting for your reply kills me,
I am scared, feeling butterflies in my stomach.
Let's hope things work out. Dear god, please.

2011-05-19T18:41:00.001+08:00

Not gonna update, I am very sian. LOL.

Critique today, fuck it. I screwed it again. I remember what I don't need to

but forget what I have to remember. Fuck it. I feel so damn sorry to my

grp mates like srsly. Feel like shit now, frustrating. and the presentation

boards! Not my prob this time, somebody elses prob. I wonder if she feels

guilty. oh well, its okay, its over! But I am still feeling bad for critique,

whapiangzxzx eh.

I am sorry and can we please be like the past? I am really sorry. I know

you still mind it, I can sense it when I text you, when I talk to you. I know you

well. I am really sorry, really really. I treasure you, really cause you're one
of the most important person to me ever. )): I am sorry.

Isn't today suppose to be best day ever cause there's not much to do
anymore? But why am I so sad, so sian, so frustrated, so tired of
everything and just wants to find a hole and hide, Hmm maybe I shld go
back Tiong bahru and live there, quiet, peaceful, good days. I know
my mood isn't affected by just critique. I know why is it like that but I
don't wanna admit it. I wanna be a tortoise and hide away, I really
really detest admitting why my mood's like that.

Shall skip dinner and sleep. sleep sleep sleep sleep till I forget
everything. If only every sleep means your mind gets refreshed
once. If only.

2011-05-17T01:35:00.000+08:00

It seems like No where is safe in the cyber world. Humans are such
pathetic beings.

Gonna update real soon. like after thursday. (: HEHEH and share some
nice awesome picture of LZX. Meanwhile, got to do work do work.
(: Go Go.

2011-05-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

Been resisting to come here, I dont wanna be reminded of what happen today.
But. I need to let it out so I can move along.

Today, is the day I cried for the first time in year 2. Release of capsicum
results. There's a total of 8 late submissions and all of them got F. YES,
FAIL. And among the whole conhord, 4% got A, 1% of that A because
of late submission drop to a F. YES, FUCK IT. I AM THAT 1%.
I WAS SO ANGRY AND SAD. I GOT 2As YOU KNOW. 2 BLOODY
As AND 1B+. Not B but B+ FUCK IT. IN THE END, CAUSE OF MY
SILLINESS TO WAIT FOR MY BESTFRIENDS, RESULTING IN
LATE SUBMISSION, I BLOODY HELL GOT A F. FUCK,
I DESERVE IT. But, no matter how much I deserve it, how regreful I am,
can somebody just put him/herself in my shoes, 2 BLOODY As and It
just flew away like this. I was so angry I cried. Ppl around, kept saying this
is just 10%, its okay, you have another 90%. Get As again and make it
up. Yes, I get what you mean. BUT. Get As again? easier said than done.
IN School of design, As doesn't come easily. Be thankful you've got a B.
They keep saying get over it, you can't change anything. But please.
How to get over it. when 2As just flew away? Okay la, if you're like the
slacker kind, fine. BUT I AM NOT. I WORK HARD FOR IT. and
LATE SUBMISSION WASN'T SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN ON ME.
TOO BAD, I AM DUMB, I WAITED FOR THEM. fine. then just
let me whine over it can?! I mean yah you guys are nice to ask me to
get over it. But, HOW TO. IMAGINE YOU'RE ME?! YOU CAN MEH?
2 BLOODY As ley. I SUMPA YOU CAN'T. I BET MY LIFE,
MY FORTUNE, EVERYTHING I HAVE THAT YOU GUYS
WILL NOT GET OVER IT SO SOON EITHER.
Been telling Estella, 2As, 1 B+. She kept telling me to forget Kept telling
her I can't. LOL. She can do nothing either I know, but. at least she's there.
She let me cry, let me swear, let me just curse and swear, tear away that result etc.
At least she listened to me. Listening to me is so much useful than asking me
to get over it. Srsly. I know I have to get over it but I just need to Let it out
first.

I am going to sleep now. Wake up tmr, nothing ever happened.
I swear to get back that 2As 1 B+ I swear I'll make it up. Its so not me,
to not make up for whatever I lost. I will replace that lost 2As, 1B+ Worth 10%,
With 3As worth 20%. Trust me when I say that. I mark my words.

2011-05-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

Second Post of the day, this shows how bored I am. -.-
I feel I am a workaholic. When there's nothing for me to do,
I'll get worried. LOL. I feel like I missed out some impt work.
insane madness, have to chill and nuar(: Submission for IDS
exhibition thingy next monday, the whole group did nothing yet,
Just research I suppose? I hope so. and I really pray that we have
enough time. Discussion tmr, can't wait can't wait. I want to get
it over and done with. I don't like last min work. HAHAHA.

and emoli so sweeeeeet she brought me LZX Gaiban Album from
tw and gave me STAGE mineral water~~ GAH. HAPPYGIRL.
the album's only available in tw omg so happy. :D

Look at him so cute omg. CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM ON
SAT!! YAH HOOOOOO~ 罗志祥，我们星期六见！♥

2011-05-11T13:39:00.000+08:00

Edited some photos when I was bored.

Last night was really scary. I thought it've got something
to do with the heart. It was sooo painful and really scary.
It very important to eat healthily I swear.

2011-05-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

I hate the fucking hot weather))): My polar bears are dying!!!

Over alr, but still. Happy mother day! (: I love you mummy. Thanks
for rising me up and teaching me values I can never learn in school.
I'll study hard!! Even I'll be a vet, but I'll earn big bucks and give you
a luxury life:D

Suddenly emo nemo again. LOL. Feel so inferior. And I have totally
no confidence of myself. ): I feel so fat. Everytime I look into th mirror,
I feel like I am a piece of lard. and nothing looks good on me. That's
why after every shopping day, though happy with loots but feels sad
and inferior. When I looked at all the skinny girls on the streets, I can't
even look them in the eye. Yes, that's how no confidence I am. GAHHH.):
When I am out in jeans or light coloured shorts, I feel like the whole
world's staring at me. Esp when I have such a skinny sissy, Ahhh make
everything worst. Okay, stop whining. stop being so emo nemo.
Go to sleep!! Sch's in tmr.

Toodles.

2011-05-08T02:28:00.004+08:00

Done with all my homework!! :D EFFICIENT GIRL 93 YAYZ.

Autocad was easier than I thought. Finished in like 2 hrs? (Y)

yayz I have a totally free sunday all to myself, and my family, Finally.

Mama's day today too. Hmmmmm.. brought carnations and cake

for her.. but not yet the present.. Shall bring her out later and buy her

something she likes(: I hope my hse have like a oven! So I can

bake! I so wanna bake cake, cookies, muffins for my family & friends.):

Mom and sis are watching the election thingy on teeweee now.

Don't know what's so nice. LOL. All I know was... aljunied was

taken by the opposition. and there goes George Yeo. Sigh. I like him

alot. He's such a nice person, full of sincerity and I feel he did sucha

a good job on foreign affairs.. I think without him, singapore GG ah.

LOL. Still, blame no one, its the people's choice.

Alright, Imma go watch some kpop stuffs and sleep early. Feel like

cooking lunch for mummy with my sister.. which means... have to

wake up at 8? Get ingredients and stuff.. so I have to like sleep soon?!

Okay.. By 4AM. Sleep by 4(: Toodles!
Gonna sleep in the living room tonight. The weather's so fucking hot.
LIKE REALLY DAMN HOT CAN. I can sweat while doing nothing. -.-
Don't wanna dirty my bed.. every morning I wake up I am sweating... My
bed's so dirty T.T ): I H8 the weather. GAHHHH >:(

HAPPY MAMA DAY! ♥ Love you mummy!

2011-05-07T01:14:00.001+08:00

Finally, Imma done with TOD Journal(: Been working on it for the past

few days, really tiring. Done editing photos for IDS T2A Submission too.

YAY HAPPYGIRL. But I still got Autocad and MAT Mr seetoh. -.-

Why is the workload never ending? )): I am so tired.. Jinja very very tired.

For the past few days, I've been sucha good girl. no videos, no slacking.

Just work. Can I slack a bit for today first? Preaseeee): desperate need

for some fun. GAH. Anyway, Site visiting on thursday. Thiong Bahru is

such a wonderful place. Soooooo vintage! I love it! (:

Shall share some interesting things here before I go and have my fun. LOL

Ugly thing right right right? heheh But I love it.. I find it so cuteee~

Its an aye-aye. Cute name too!! awww QT. <:

Its a Pygmy Tapir! :D WHA, I WANNA KEEP IT AS A PET.

Pygmy Jerboa. QT! :D AWWWWW~ So tiny weenie.

HEEEEEEEE HEEEEE Pygmy Marmoset. (; Ahhhh cannot resist...

cuteness overload. clinging on the finger(:

Pygmy Possum. TEEE HEEEE SO QQQQQQQQ:D

Omg. So wanna carry it carry it!!

Frill shark. Whut? This is a shark. See! Kids, there's no need

to be scared of sharks. They're ain't scary. LOL.

Pretty pretty!!! Beautiful Flamingos. Graceful creature(:

Heeeeeee, so happy looking at my animals. Animals are like

one of the freaking damn thing on earth. (:

Annyeong.

2011-05-05T01:49:00.001+08:00

Hais.. Suddenly so emo nemo after reading xiaxue's blog. Why would
anybody not show respect for lee kuan yew and george yeo? They're
so noble. What xiaxue says makes 100% sense man. Esp the LKY
part, so touching. LOL. He has always beeen a hero to me. LOL. I
even read the book about him. yes, that super thick book. He gave up
so much for the country, and for singaporeans, throughout his whole
entire life up till now, he's still trying hard to please every singaporeans.
sigh, why can't some people just think about what others have done and
not think about what they have not done?

Okay, not someone that's into politics so back to work! Damn tired alr but
still have to buck up! HWAITING.

2011-05-02T03:04:00.003+08:00

Gahhhhhh i cannot sleep): I kept thinking about what my uncle said this afternoon and I get so scared and I can't sleep): I am such timid freak))): but i really like to watch and listen. Contradicting max. Haiyo even after crapping here I still can't sleep... I feel like watching videos but I am too scared to move to get my earpiece)): why did I listen in the first place): okay, i shall count sheeps, think about LZX, think about doojoon, think about nichkhun, think about kikwang, think about yoseob, think about junhyung and hopefully I'll be too tired and stop thinking about scary stuffs and go to sleep(: ....................... 'So what if I don't club? Does that make me a loser? NO(: I just love running around in the field,rolling on the sand, running on te track, in the hall sweating and panting like a dog but having fun than to squeeze with people in a club, inhale smoke that stinks like fuck(: you can beg to differ cause that's you and not me. I have never wanted to be you and you can NEVER be me(: so just go live your clubbing life and I'll have fun rolling around(:'

2011-04-27T16:31:00.012+08:00

Soooooo much to blog about, I don’t where to start from -.- LOL.
Hmmmm shall start from Ytd then.

26^th April, Tuesday.

IDC lessons suck. Okay the lecturer is very nice! Jonathon. And learning
Autocad don’t suck either. But installing it sucks max. -.- Take so freaking
longgggggggggg~ I wanna master autocad. Cause Jonathon says it’s
important and really useful in design field. *Raise eyebrown* :D And!! We
have to do site measurements. Like again. Dislike dislike. Its so mafan one
lo. And so, because we were unsure if there’s CRS. The lecturer doesn’t
know blackboard existed and make us all so confusing. So we went to do
site measurement tgt as a class. IT WAS CHAOS. LOL. WE’RE REALLY
BAD AT SITE MEASURING.ALL DIMENSIONS WRONG ONEZ.
FUNNY. LOL. And we spent like near to 3 hrs? Doing this. -.- Slow
efficiency.

I love my new class. Really. Well, At least for today. Talk and “played” with
Amanda, Estella, wenxin, etc. So cutee they all so funny. I like (Y)
no more 04! YAYZ NO MORE 04. Can’t click with them either.
Hehehehehe. 05 NOW 05:D I hope everybody stays bonded and funnnny
for like very very very long. Then I’ll look forward to school everyday. (:
Happygirl today cause I felt class spirit and don’t feels like a loner for after
like 1 year? (:

25^th April. Building A brick Wall

& Field Trip to Biennale Singapore @ Old Kallang Airport.

Building brick walls with mortar is damn tiring I swear. ): Was sweating like
mad. And my back hurts . So badly from all the squatting. Contractors &
Construction workers are daebak! (Y) and the bricks hah! Heavy shit>:
But overall it was quite an experience cause I get to build brick walls!
For the 1^st time(:

Biennale Singapore. AWESOME TRIP AWESOME. TOTALLY. Though Its

really really really tiring. Weather’s so hot and we’re so heavy with our
bags and we had to walk around 3 blocks, climbing up & down. I
nearly died.HAHAHA. Damn tiring. Totally drained out on the way back
in the bus, and I fell asleep, all sweaty and sticky. BUT IT WAS REALLY
FUN. I get to see artworks from all over the world like London etc. and
they’re really good works. Abstract, but UNIQUE. Some are so abstract
I really don’t understand what the artist is thinking. LOL. :O I love some
the works too, I wished I can create artistic works like this too. ):

PS: This was type last night at like 11.09PM. hehe.

Okay, Photos up!

Delifrance First ♥

Biennale Singapore, Shall just share some of the exhibits I liked.

Self- Portrait Drawn by primary school kids.

My "Favourite Self- portrait" I chose for task 1. The kid

who drew this says:" I drew a picture of basketball because I

like playing basketball." I like ah~ So simple but yet shows

his innerself and his dream. Kids... are just innocent & simple(:

Another favourite~ DAMN CHIO. Can you believe it? this is

drawn by a primary 4 kid. PRI 4. TALENTED.

"Imminent Departure" by Lisi Raskin.

"A reasonable man in a box" By Jill Magid

"Deutsche scheune" By Elmgreen & Dragset

"Unequal Exchange" By Arin Rungjang

"Mayfair ......" By Robert Macpherson

"Devo Partire, Domani" By Ming Wong

"What a difference a day made" By Michael Lin

"Oct 14 thursday I realised this morning while cleaning my shoes,

I was applying colours with a brush- My shoes are painting!"

Robert Macpherson

"Relics of boredom" By Robert Macpherson

"Double Up" By Michael Beutler

"100 Popcorn Portraits" By Ruben Ramos Balsa"

"Le Cannibale" By Mike Nelson

"Frost Drawing for kallang" by Gosia Wlodarczak.

My favourite exhibit!!! SUPER NICE. I WANNA DO THIS

TO THE GLASS IN MY HOUSE NEXT TIME. CHIO.

"Office orchitect" By Michael Lee

Another favourite exhibit. Damn niceee also~ :D

Its like excellent worksmanship & it's really unique.

Especialyl the dinosaur one. I wonder How long he take

sia. so detailed. OMG.

OMG. SO DETAILED OH MY GODDESS. HE'S DAEBAK.

I forgot who's the artist alr. But I KNOW OILY MAN. GAHHHH

"Building Entered" By Charles Labelle

HAND DRAWN. OMG.

Some garden artworks~~ Idk who's the artist.

I love the toast box there! Not for the toast but for its outlook and design.

VINTAGE! :D

GUESS WHO IS THIS? :D ♥

YAY. DONE. PHEW. Finally.

Running with chuenliang, fanying at 5. Yay they're coming
over.. No need to travel. (Y) I hope they're not

late. From 4 drag till 5. HAI GUYS....

2011-04-24T00:32:00.002+08:00

Been going to the hospital 2 days in a row to visit my aunt)))):
She's down with pulmonia(?) and cancer))): Saw how they took
the water out from her lungs today, wha it looks so painful and she
looked like she's suffering): She was better ytd without the tube):
I hope her pulmonia goes away quickly so she can scan and cure
her cancer)): Doc says if the cancerous cell spreads, then it's gonna
get complicated. Oh man, no way no way): Uncle's looking so
"geksim". and my cousins (her sons) too): Although they're smiling
but.. can see they're so worried. I hope my aunt will be fine,
I will really pray very hard for her to be fine(: She's my family.
Shall visit her again tmr. Though we do nothing there too, but I hope
it at least encourages her to stay strong and know we're all here(:
Stay strong stay strong, I know she'll recover(: She must!

Enough of emo stuffs! Meet up with girlfriends today(: Had delifrance~
Carbonara (Y) YAY. SPAM PHOTOS & I like everything. LOL.
Again, it was a short but awesome meetup. like always(: LOVEEEE
THEM.

Was folding the title blocks for monday submission as soon as I got
home, haven even bath. :/ I want to finish up quickly and spent my
sunday with my aunt and my family(: BUT! THE FOLDING PISSES
ME OFF SO BADLY. GAH. The lecturer's instructions sucks max
la. srsly. Fuck her. OPPS LOL. Didn't believe it when bird says it
was hard and he fold till headache LOLOLOL. But yes, it's totally
true. I am having a terrible headache now from using too much brain
cells to figure out the folding. ): Shall try again tmr and if I still fails,
oh well no choice, go sch earlier on mon and fold together:D

Alright, have to go bath now. Feels so dirty>: Sorry for the lengthy
post, photos up tmr! :D too tired to do anything now. -.-

Today, I heard this from my cousin and it stays in my head.
"Last time when she's at home, she always on tv and just watch whole
day. Ytd I go home, very quiet. So I on the tv because if not it's too
quiet."

2011-04-21T18:31:00.001+08:00

Something happened today))): But I got over it(:

Although it gonna reflect at the end of 13 weeks.

But its okay.

I fall, I get up.

Fall again, Get up again.

And I'll keep getting up everytime I fall, for-ever(:

That's how life is and that's how we're supposed to

live through life. Fall and get back up.

Yes, I'll move along. Tmr morning when I wake up,

I'll definitely get over it, cleared, out of my mind(:

Faris said today:" Every second is history."

and I don't care about history, we all shouldn't.

Angry at myself why I did it but nah, no regrets. (:

Yeah Yeah, move along moving along(:

2011-04-20T21:20:00.001+08:00

REPETITION, HIERARCHY & POCHE

Submission's tmr. and I am done with it but why am I
feeling uneasy? So uneasy and I have absolutely no confidence
in my work at all. When I look at it, I feel like it sucks and I
wanna redo it knowing I wouldn't have time at all & my fingers
hurts like fuck from all the cutting. Seriously, I am so so so
worried for tmr and I am feeling so so so so damn uneasy.
I checked and re checked and read and read again and again
for the project brief, the requirements. but I am totally not confident
that I got it right. Why? ))): I kept thinking if I've achieve at least 1 out
of 8 ordering design principles. and the max we can go is 3. I kept
feeling I've exceeded 3 and I kept feeling my stairs are out of scale)):

Took a picture of it, MMS to dee. she told me its correct but!
Why am I still feeling uneasy? The uneasiness is killing me slowly.
Because the uneasiness won't go away, I spent 2 hours staring at
my model. REALLY STARING. I can't figure out what went
wrong. Oh my!! ))): what went wrong??? Wassup with that
uneasiness?! Its only the first submission and I am feeling stress.
Fuck it. >.< I shldn't even be feeling stress over it. It's only the
first! The more I looked at my work the more I feel its cui and
it sucks. I can't even bring myself to bring it to school tmr. I know the
phrase :"For others to appreciate your work, You yourself have to
love it first." But I can't, I can't bring myself to love my work cause
its looking so bad, at least to me.

okay, have to work something out. this is not making sense):
I have to think of something to get rid of the uneasiness if not, I will
not be able to sleep at all tonight.

Sucks to be a perfectionist, Sucks to have low confidence of myself.
Sucks to be ME.

2011-04-20T13:56:00.001+08:00

What are words If you really don't mean them.
-What are words- Chris Medina-

Yes yes, so true~

2011-04-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

15th April

Sentosa for Suntanning with Bitch:D AWESOME~

the sun was really really really good to tan. and of course

had a good tan but got sun burnt too on my back and abit

on my thigh since they're pretty red now. Though not evenly

tanned but still, loving it loving it~ Talked so much with her,

LOVE IT. It was a really happy day for both of us!

So longggg since we had time to have girl's talk:D and we make it

a deal to tan regularly so to maintain it~ YAYZ. ♥

My cooked thighs~ PAIN>: & According to my sis,

my back's redness is like 5 times worst than this. Oh my!

No peeling please~~ No )):

Hwaiting for tmr(: JYJY.

2011-04-14T02:33:00.001+08:00

Just finished tidying my table~ Now its so clean and looking all good

for year 2. Monday monday monday~ PLEASE DON'T COME(:

O'well its okay, I am anticipating for the next holiday to come:D

Anyway, Got into "The revealing eye of digital photography" for gems~

Something I don't see myself taking but I took anyway. LOL.

& the thing is, sabrina's in it too and same class as me somemore~

What a coincidence~~ Was really happy abt it, I have company(:

Thought I'll survive there alone again but it turned out otherwise! (Y)

Hopefully I'll learn from this gems, I think I will(:

Been watching B2ST so so so so so much recently. Imma going crazy~

MUAHAHAHHA! B2ST Almighty is so niceeee nicer than idol maid

GAH loving it loving it. ♥

Suntanning on friday with deelormeee~ YES YES YES SUNTANNING:D

CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT. I hope the sun's good~ Gonna picnic

there too.. Shall prepare shepherd's pie<: and maybe something else.

I hope to get a good tan~ oh! and I need a new hair cut. My hair's terrible

now, machiam grass. thick and rough.. Yes, in need of a new hair cut.

So sick of long brown hair alr. feel like highlighting it red. but that means

I'll have to dye it black first cause brown and red doesn't go well tgt at all >.<

Hmmmm shall think abt it srsly tmr~

Yearning for some chivas with coke right now. Yes shall drink it and

watch one more episode of B2ST Almighty and head to bed:D

Toodles~

2011-04-12T12:29:00.002+08:00

I knew this would happen. I just knew it! Nobody's really reliable and
trustworthy in this entire universe. The only person to rely on and trust
is yourself. The only person that won't betray and go back on his/ her
words is myself. I am so so so disappointed and speechless about
everything. At least I see, no matter how long you know someone,
you have to know when someone else whom matters more to him/her
comes, you have to take the back seat and be independent.
Kay, whatever I am so disappointed to say anything now.

Fuck this whole shit, Fuck it.
"Being alone is one thing but if you're studying/learning
something you like, it wouldn't be that bad..." (Y)

2011-04-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

GAHHH MY BACK PAIN IS KILLING ME ):
I thought it was better already but it just got worst)):
whalao.. I feel so handicapped. and I feel like I've aged
by 50 years, behaving like some old woman, walking
super slowly. I need Salon Pas(: Badly~ LOL.

Went for movies today at bte's house~~ Ordered pizza~
*slurps slurps* watched paranormal activity 2. It's not as
scary as paranormal 1 but of course there's some scary
parts too~ but I still think 1's better(: Watched sanctum
after that cause I forced them to. LOL. opps~ VERY NICE
MA and they never watch yet~ Left arnd 6plus(:
and that's when I thought my back's getting better but its not.
GAH. Okay, imma gonna take my daily dosage now. Watching
kpop:D WHEEE~

2011-04-10T17:27:00.004+08:00

I survived:D

I survived 12KM this morning~ phew! Woke up at 5am and off for
marathon. GAHHH 12KM. I thought I was dying. LOL. anyway, I
did it<: HAPPYGIRL. Though it rained for a lil while and it was terrible
running in the rain when you're sweating and all but overall.. good
experience uh~ went for Mac breakfast after that(:

My hard-earned Medal~ <:

8th April~
Met up with Sabrina for Honeymoon desert & Sanctum~
Man I tell you. sanctum is not for the weak hearted~~~
After the whole movie, my eyes were mad red)): Overall
its a very nice movie something like 127 hours but it was
really sad when the daddy died cried like mad. Go catch it
if you can take sad stuffs! :D (Y) Honeymoon dessert was
pretty niceee had mango pancake but its not a pancake.. its
mango and cream inside. NICE~
gahh still can't forget sanctum so traumatised omg and I
am so sad the daddy died))));

(: Good movie~

9th March~
Collected my LZX album at sembangwang LIKE FINALLY.
>:( WAITED SO DAMN BLOODY LONG. last time man I tell you.
Last time that I am gonna buy from her again>: Anyway, LZX is
awesome~~ SUPER HAPPY LOOKING AT EVERYTHING.
the perfume smells so goooooooood~ ♥

See see~ So many goodies gahhh got signature somemore leyyyy~
HAPPYGIRL AH!! :D can't wait to see him on 14th may~

My serial number~~~ hehehehe happygirl.
There's only 30000 so I am like the number 29840~ COOL<:)

No muscle aches from this marathon~ Okay at least not for now~
But my toe nail hurts like fuck. srsly. I swear its damn painful now.
and it will fall off whalao ugly nails ley if they fall off>: worried I'll
wake up with terrible muscles aches tmr... nvm even if so, I'll drag
myself to bte's house<: YAYZ.

Okay, I wanna watch my kikwang liaoz.. SO FREAKING CUTE
& Shuai~ Tsk. :D annyeong~

2011-04-08T02:28:00.002+08:00

Time Table out~~ whalao everyday end at 6 except friday but no school on

wednesday (Y) But I got a feeling it will change. HTI leyyyyy. why is it missing?

LOL. or there's no more HTI?! :D my gut feelings tells me my time table

will change so I shall not be too happy about it yet>:(

Okay shall not think about it anymore. and get back to my show..

HEHEHEE. Watched Oh my school today and kikwang is so damn hot.

oh my goddess. His abs~~ chio! GAHHAHHHH~ Shall finish up the show

and sleep soon. Meeting sab tmr~ <:

2011-04-05T22:28:00.001+08:00

Went uncle house today~ Forgot to bring camera))): Spent
my whole rotting there though I brought my laptop with me
but I only watched 'Postman to heaven". Kim jaejoong freaking
hot please. (Y) GAHHHH~ talked to my cousins and all.
Feels like a "mini reunion dinner". LOL. So many people,
so noisy and I am loving the noisiness(: Love times like this
when everybody just sit down and talk. (:

Having a really terrible headache now.. whalao>:( Everynight
at like arnd 10plus I'll get headache. and it's really very painful
so feel like dying oh my goddess. Can I cut my brain out to see
what's wrong or am I dying? LOL. ))):

Holidays ending soon, I am really really really sibei sian about it.
No sleep plus, No awesome classmates plus stressful life,
plus busy days >: X infinity. and there's gems. whalao hate gems
I don't like to the feeling of wanting something but unable to get it.
LOL. like those stress feeling. and I don't know my time table yet.
I hope it's good. It better be good): No bestfriend in class at least
let me have good time table can anot? Please don't be so cruel):

Marathon this coming sunday. wish me luck. I didn't train at all.
LOL. I shall just die at like 5km. and the next 5km... LOL
walk ah. I just hope I don't get stitches. I can never run when I'm
having stitches>:

Alright, my headache is getting really terrible.. Even hitting my head real
hard constantly doesn't help. shall pop panadols and then bath and
see if it gets better(: Going back sch tmr.. Acc girls to reformat their lappy.
<: Feels like dressing up but I think tmr when I wake up, I'll be so damn
lazy to.annyeong~

2011-04-01T19:07:00.007+08:00

Happy April's Fool everyone~~

Laptop's good as new now. With all the programs I need for school<:
The man was really really helpful and nice (Y) Imma sucha computer
noob ):< THANKS ADILAH BABE FOR ACCOMPANYING ME THROUGHOUT!
If you didn't Pei me, woah I think bored die me for like arnd 4 hrs?
THANK YOUUUU~ ♥ I will take extra care for my lappy now and love it
even more. Please be good xiaobai(:

30th March~

Baking @ Penelope's House. SUCCESS. YAYZ. Went to get ingredients
first then off to bake. Throughout the process, we were getting really
hopeless about the outcome cause the mixture just looks.. Ewwww
disgusting. and our measurements are all wrong, ALL. Tried twice and
on the third try, it turned out well. (Y) Supposedly, strawberry cupcakes
But it became Strawberry chocolate cupcakes.. LOL. but still yummy. and
Instant chocolate moist cake~~

First Try>: Totally Burnt and it tasted so terrible. oh god.

Decorated some of the cupcakes with icing. Fail la our drawings/writings.

Talked alot with adilah today I like <: and it made me think suddenly.
I feel as I aged, I have more and more haters or people who disliked
me or just feel negative towards me. guess cause as I grew older,
I became more blunt, selfish, impatient and less tolerant of others.
Of course, I cursed and swear more and complained more too.
Haters affect me alot in the past but not now anymore. I can't be
bothered cause life's like that. Not everyone is bound to like you and
be friends with you. There will definitely be haters and haters are those
that made you a better person, made you reflect and change for the
better, motivate you to thrive your best(: Talked about classmates too
and sigh. When school starts, Imma gonna be alone again. Oh well,
I just don't click with them>:( what to do. I should tell myself, Nvm,
Its okay! Life still goes on and so what if I am alone, I'll do better alone(:
I will be a strong girl(: Yes yes, I will. A weakling, Not.

2011-03-28T22:20:00.007+08:00

I hate it when people don't reply smses. You can jolly well just throw your
phone away. Since with or without, it doesn't matter. -.- I had enough of
staring at the phone, waiting for it to vibrate.
And friends who place their boyfriend on top of everything, Just what's
the fucking problem with you?! Why can't you treat your friends as well
as you treat your boyfriend? If one fine day, he's gonna leave you, who's
there for you? or rather who will you turn to? Your friends right, and this
is how you treat your friends? Hell, I don't fucking understand what's on
your mind and how your mind works for nuts!

I don't have much patience, you see. and I don't give a damn anymore.
In a foul mood, in a foul mood. Yes, In a terribly foul mood.

People who don't know me or don't know me well, judge me and may think
I am just being selfish, unconcerned and insincere here. but
people who understands and knows me well enough knows who I really am.

2011-03-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

Watched this ytd(: AWESOME. TOTALLY!!!!!
go catch it if you guys haven. It's a must-watch movie!
After the movie. my fetish for uniform groups, marines
etc went overloaded. LOL. aahhhhhhhh shuai max (:
Went archipelago brewery at M hotel to drink afterwards.
okay or rather, they went to drink. I only had Shirley temple
cause of intestine flu)): I like that place, quiet, nice, good service.
A very good place to just chill out(:

Been watching alot of kim heechul shows recently. LOL. funny
guy! I like! LOL.

okay.. nothing else to blog abt >.< shall go kpop now. (:

Whee I wanna watch battle L.A again & again & again & again.
((((:

2011-03-24T12:57:00.000+08:00

http://www.chrisstraley.com

I MUST LEARN SURFING ONE DAY! :D Looking at all these
photos made me so high high!~ Since young, I've always wanted
to learn surfing. I've always feel it's a very challenging and fun sport
to master. (:

2011-03-22T12:36:00.002+08:00

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HAPPYGIRL!

2011-03-21T14:22:00.001+08:00

LOLOLOLOLOL!

2011-03-18T18:32:00.005+08:00

Hectic Days~~

Tuesday, 15th March

Let's go fly kite at west coast! (: Wheeeee~
HEHEHEHEHEHE LOVE Y'ALL! ♥ BEST FRIENDS<:

Wednesday, 16th & Thursday 17th.

Outing with line62 crew wheeeeee~ Watched "Rango"..
and then slacked arnd while eating dinner and off to
dee's house for drinking and games. Played till 1am and
was suppose to go home.. but feel like staying over
since majority were.. and I was really tired and bloated..
I don't feel like moving.. LOL. So.. yeah stayed over
and watch horror movies.. Wasn't really watching but
couldn't really sleep either.. too bloated from
all the drinking.. Mac breakfast in the morning~ and
Home sweet Home. (:

Slept from 11 to 3plus 4 and off to meet SIS for emily's
birthday dinner at Shokudo(: totally slept like a log
after that... only woke up arnd 1plus 2 today..
Now I am so awake. (:

Feels so so so goood to meet my dear friends ♥ for 2 days
straight and I had fun on both days. hehehehehe. Can't
imagine life without them.. it would be such a bore. hehehee

2011-03-13T18:32:00.002+08:00

BACK TO SCHOOL PARTEEEEEE

Back from ytd's partyyyy(: Wheeee had fun<: It has been so
long since I last drank so much.. feels good. I am not an
alcoholic.. but yeah it feels good(: Only slept for 3 hours.
but I am not sleepy at all now. (Y) Played many retarded
drinking games too. Like a fun ah, laugh damn alot:D
geeeeeeeeeeeeee~ my weekends were well-spent. really
well-spent(: and it feels good when you have a car.
like super convenient please. (:

Read news about japan. sigh sigh sigh. everything happened
so suddenly.. My jaw literally drop when I heard about it.
8.9.. 8.9.. how terrible is that! then tsunami, fire, explosions,
chemical explosion which takes hundred years to fully disperse,
toxic air. oh my god. I don't know what to say after
reading and looking at the pictures etc.. It's scary looking at
the pictures.. It feels like the world is really ending.
It's like a dead town, country.. in such a terrible state..
I really feel for the victims. They must be so scared, so helpless,
so hopeless. There's just this indescribable feeling I have. it's
more than sadness..it's just... aiya I don't know how to describe..
but it doesn't feel good, OF COURSE. I hope japan will be fine))))):
I'll pray.. I'll pray for japan..everybody, pray for japan too(:

Dear god, have mercy on us, on japan.. Its enough already,
isn't it?

2011-03-10T12:17:00.001+08:00

Town with isabelle ytd(: watched "127 hours". A very inspiring movie.
but we watch till very stress ah.. LOL! from the moment he's stuck,
we kept worrying when he'll cut off his own hand. SCARED. and for
the first time in my life, I totally miss out the climax of the movie.. the
part when he decided to break his arm, tear his skin and cut off his flesh.
I swear I didn't watch at all. (: very gore siaaa. GAHHHHH>: I kept
asking isabelle "Is he done is he done!" Then this man sitting beside me..
said this:" He's down alr." Shit la. very embarrassing leyyyyyy): whalao.
grrrrr nvm forget it. But overall, the movie is nice la. very inspiring. (:
I rather watch ghost and all than gore movies, really don't dare to
watch. LOL.

I am so addicted to this old drama "3 daddies 1 mommy". No idols in it..
but Its very niceeeee(: I like gwanghui. So cute and shuai in the show:D
wheeeeeee.

This picture totally made me go :"LOLOLLOOLOLL!!!"

Heeeee so cuteeeeeeeeeeeee (: Awwwww~

Okay, I am gonna watch my drama now. YAY. GWANGHUI!

2011-03-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

The only reason I am here.. I AM BORED. REAL BORED>:
I HAVE NOTHING TO DO.. and worst, I have nothing to blog
either. HOHO. When I have nothing to do, I dream and think
alot and that's no good. Suddenly I feel so lonely. LOL.

Finished watching "dream high" ytd. That leaves me with nothing
to watch.. ):
Something awesome, LZX's having concert in singapore again!
and YES, I AM GOING. OH YEAHHHHH;D happygirl!!
Collecting tickets tmr.. CAN'T WAIT. PLEASE
FAST FORWARD TO MAY 14TH. (: Just remembered..
I am supposed to plan some outings... With.. isabelle, sabrina..
Penelope and yeah.. hazreena, adilah and the boys.. GAH..
lazy plan.. Singapore's so tiny.. no where to go. NVM.
Shall plan tmr instead(:

Gonna watch "Oh my school!" now. HONGKI SO CUTE:D hehe.

okayyyy, shall watch "Oh my school" HONGKI AH..
CUTEE:D I am really bored, really really bored.

2011-03-03T23:04:00.005+08:00

LET'S GO TO SENTOSAAAAA~

Sentosa ytd with my dearest friends, 친구 ah! :D
Hehe, had so much fun, really. Exercise a lot. Not in the right
attire:/ (blame it on my forgetfulness. heh) but yeah, still fun and
awesome(: Not an awesome weather for sun tanning too, but an
awesome weather to have fun and just play. heheheh Love them,
so funny, so cute. LOL. and retarded. HAHAHA. Didn't get sun burnt,
okayy, I think a bit.. on my shoulder and back.. got tanner by a bit
too! Loving my tan now~~ (Y) I wanna go sentosa again.. to tan and
yah, just waste time on the beach, so chill. LOL. Went vivo afterwards
to eat and then play indian poker at the top level(:
heeheh so funny~ Was really having fun and forgot all about the time
until mom called. GAHH SO FIERCE>: Reached home around 12plus.

Woke up with muscle ache today.. must be from the games ytd.
LOL. played so much la. But I like it<: Shall go running tmr if the
weather's good(: Spent my afternoon watching Dream high today..
Can't believe I actually cried when Sam dong performed and Hye mi was
helping him in ep 13. So touching. *Sobs sobs* LOL. Poor sam dong):
IU & wooyoung still very very very cuteeeee~ I like (Y)

Alright, Annyeong 친구 (:

2011-03-03T00:59:00.000+08:00

Today's such a fun day:D totally had fun. Hehehehehe I love my friends, so funny so cute:D wheeeee~ I can't wait for the next outing.. Hehe coming soon!(: okay, shall blog more tmr. My hair's dry, super tired. I wanna sleep(: toddles!

2011-03-01T22:46:00.002+08:00

Gahhhhh I think I am mad. LOL. I am like super
in love with this couple.. I KNOW ITS FAKE -.-
BUT THEY'RE SO CUTEEE TGT. AWWWWWW:D hehehehe.
Dream high's making go GAGAGAGA. so awesome..
ep 12 now. 4 more episodes to the end.. Can't bear to watch
finish.. ): eunjung that bitch is getting on my nerves. >< IRRITATING
GIRL. I srsly wish Wooyoung and IU are for real man. LOL.

Imma a happy girl today! :) Bought new casual wear again..
and the top I bought online arrived today too.. and liyin just
told me LZX having encore concert in May.. HEHE:D
Been watching "Oh! my school" recently. LAUGH DIE ME.
the episode with heechul. I laughed till I thought my stomach's
gonna explode. LOL. Simon D very cool! I like (Y) hehehe.

Sentosa tmr... EGGCITED!!! I WANNA PLAY VOLLEYBALL.
AND MEET UP WITH THE REST. HEH MISS THEM! LOL. (:
Shall try to wake up on time tmr.. Hmmmm waking up on time
is kinda hard for me.. sleep early tonight! :D

Okay!! shall go bath. hehe haven bath.. OPPS. ANNYEONG(:

2011-02-26T20:00:00.001+08:00

GAHHHHHHHHH I AM BORED. -.-
nothing to dooooooooo)))): LOL.
Town ytd was quite fruitful(: Bought 3 new bags
from The editor's market. I like (Y) good buys(:
whalao I really very bored -.- nothing much to blog also.
okay, shall go bathe now and watch dream high later(:

Bye!

Goodluck to those having exams now or soon~ tough times
will be over soon! (: Press on!

2011-02-25T15:50:00.002+08:00

Hi, Today marks the official end of my year one in interior design:)
Imma blasting music now and for this moment, life's good.
The past one year in ID was... terrible. :/ well but I made it! Year 2...
hah its just gonna get worst, more tears of frustration, more sacrifices,
more thoughts of giving up, more sleepless night.. Maybe staying awake
for 48 hours straight with only 1 or 2 hours of sleep few days before
wasn't the limit. Let's see how long I can stay awake for year 2.
72 hours?! 3 days straight? :O
Shall not think about it and scare myself for now.

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE OFFICIALLY. IT'S PAYBACK TIME!
somehow I'm loving the hot and sunny weather now. but yes,
I complained alot about how hot it is. but it makes me feel
like holidays are here and it's time to hit the beach! :) CAN'T WAIT.

I am going to make full use of this hard to come by holiday. other than
losing weight and having fun, I have to find the old "me" back.
this sounds emo I know, but nah. not being emo nemo here. Just some
deep thinking. As we age and grow, we think more and think deeper.
somehow I feel like I am losing myself, and I hate it. I want to find
the original me back(:

Meeting sister 645 at town later. Meantime, I shall.... watch something?
or clean my lappy? Lappy's seriously in need for some cleaning. Xiaobai's
gonna turn into xiaohuang):

Some things just can't be changed. You got to face it.